I was born Ana-Liset Mendoza
though I was suppose to be Josephina,
but they have hard lives.
And mama was mad at dad,
so I wasn't Catilina.
But I was never really Ana-Liset,
and I don't know what it's like to be Ana-Liset
except when someone young is trying to sound old,
and it always just sounds silly to my ears.
Sometimes I forget what my name really is,
that I am not just a liset, but Ana-Liset,
cause I don't really know what it's like to be her.
That girl with the hyphen,
I always imagined her taller,
with darker eyebrows.
What does the hyphen mean anyways?
I don't feel like a combined meaning.
Or maybe I'm the noun:
active in more than one sphere,
but that doesn't sound right either.
Because how can I be in more than one,
if I don't even know what that one is?
Still on the first day,
when they call out that name,
that's not really my name.
Oh me, my face says.
And I raise my hand
if I am me in the end.