When reading this event I was amazed at the geniune feel the narrator had. The first paragraph or so was typical, talking about generic resolutions, But when he delivers his resolution "I want to learn to see myself as nothing." is when the interest kicks in. The narrator digs into situations where he wants to be nothing yet he has "You spend the first half of your life learning that you are something after all, now you have to spend the second half learning to see yourself as nothing." The concept here is a disconnec with reality, trying, in vein, to become something your not, and can never be. Finally the narrator sees his resolution is beyond his control and reduces his goal, day by day learning to "be a little less then I usually am." With this last line we also get a tiny glimpse into a potential suicidal person.